Uneasy, disturbed.
Why am I even bothered about all this things ?
You have better things to do than this, Christina.
Knowing all this does not make me feel any better.
I felt worse.
And this feeling sucks.
I don’t know if your ever have this sucky feeling before and it just simply pulls everything down. Sometimes, I just hate myself for thinking so much,that it cause a lot of emotional pain and even make my mood swing real hard but what I am thinking is always true and I just can’t stop myself in doing that.
And i always tried my best to put a halt to it by not thinking and involving in it.
But it just seems so difficult and its a hurdle that probably i would never get rid of and would stick to me forever..